Yeah... It Caught Up With Me

Yeah... I gained this week.  Not too surprising given that I've been in sick mode, therefore all my self restraint has gone out the window.  But it's okay.  One week does not ruin an entire plan. 

I also know why.  I stopped tracking.  I track, I do well, I lose weight, I stop tracking thinking I have a pretty good idea what I'm doing, then I stop paying attention and boom!  I gain again.  It's okay.  It's not the end of the world.  I've started tracking again, and I will continue to do so this week.

I am also going to add exercise into the mix.  Turns out I'm getting tired of lazing around.  This means I need to listen to something my grandmother once told me.  I can't remember her exact words, but it was something along the lines of the more you do, the more you want to do.  I know she's right - I have more energy to do things the more I do.  The more I sit in my comfy chair and do nothing, the more I feel like doing nothing.

So this week my goal is to track my points, get some exercise, and stay on top of my chores.  I really struggle with energy after work.  So I'm going to get a cup at tea at 4pm, review my meal plan and decide on supper and what I am going to do when I get home.  With that in my mind... I should have the energy and the momentum to make more progess.

Being an adult is sure tough some days!! 

Well, I Have No Idea!

Well, I don't know... I have definitely not been as good as I should have been, I've been snacking more than I should, I've been indulging in french fries and coke more than I should and I'm pretty sure that I've gone over on all my daily points and most of my weekly points this week.  But... I'm still losing.  I have no idea what's going on.  I'm not losing much... this week I lost 0.4lbs.  So while it's not a lot, it is still in the right direction.

My suspicion is that I fill in the point tracker at work - realize I've done something stupid like eaten french fries, or cake, or chocolate milk and then I adjust what I'm eating at dinner.  I'm still not in my points target for the day, but I suspect that making those dinner adjustments is more than what I was doing before so it's still making a difference.

This week I want to stay in my points target.  Both weekly and daily.  At some point I'd like to stop using the weekly points every week, however I don't think I can do that yet.  So this week will be focused on staying actually within my points targets, and making good decisions.

At some point I need to work exercise in... maybe I should start taking the stairs at work.  I can't seem to work it in any other way, so maybe that will be the goal next week.  Everytime I need to use the elevator, I go up two flights of stairs.  I will try that next week and see how that goes.

I'd love to do it at home... the problem is 1) I don't get up early enough 2) I'm too tired in the evening 3) My exercise space is full of random junk that needs cleaning up 4) We aren't great about getting Lochlan to clean up his toys so I don't have room to do my Wii exercises.

So the goals for this week are:

1.  Stay in points target
2.  Everytime I need to take the elevator, go up two flights of stairs.
3.  Start doing my Wii exercises again (start with 10 minutes in the morning)

Those are good weightloss related goals this week!

I have other goals... that needs a new post :)

January - Progress

So January 1 hit... and I started watching what I was eating.  I started with WW Online because I don't have time to attend meetings, and I don't like the group format.  I wanted something that was minimal fuss, but got results, was healthy, and something flexible enough so that I was still indulging in the stuff I enjoyed... just less.  WW online works, I have access to it at home and at work, it's easy and the system accounts for calories and fat and exercise.

Since January I've lost 7.6lbs.  Not bad, not bad at all.

So why did I start this blog?

I can feel myself slipping.  I ate waaaaaay to many M&Ms this weekend, I had a grilled cheese and fries for lunch when I know, know, KNOW that fries are just not good for me.  Not only do I feel gross after eating them, they are sooooo high in fat that I can feel myself sliding back into old patterns and I want to stop it.

So I'm writing again.

And I'm going to stop indulging.

It's okay.  It's okay that I had a rough weekend food-wise.  I'm not punishing myself for slipping.  But I am not going to let myself slip tomorrow.  I am working on the philosphy that life is a series of ups and downs.  Sometimes I need the indulgence and I think that's okay.  I just need to keep the indulgence to a day or two and not a week, month or year or two.  I can do that.

I may go out for lunch - but I will balance the rest of my day.  I will stay away from french fries and coke.  I will be good.  I will.

I like the numbers going down, I want them staying that direction and I will NOT let one weekend's indulgence scrap my goals.

So there.

I will be not indulge tomorrow.  I won't.

A New Year, A New Beginning

Where to start...

I've never been the super skinny type - that said when I was younger, I never had a problem with my weight.  Somehow my metabolism changed, or my activity level changed, or my diet changed... or something and I started putting on weight.  I've been gaining steadily for about 10 years.  I'd gain some, then I'd stabilize, then gain some more.  The only downtrend was when I got pregnant - I was really, really good and ended up 20lbs lighter after my son was born.  This was good!  I went to Mommy & Baby exercise classes, I started Weightwatchers, I was doing good!

Then I went back to work.  Then work got more stressful and I started gaining again.  I gained back all I had lost plus an extra 20lbs.  My knees started to hurt, and I started walking that "fat person" walk.  I had troubles keeping up with my sons, and I run out of energy easily.

My biggest problem?

Self Indugence.

I love food, I love to eat good food and I really, really, really love chocolate.  And since I was always having a hard day I indulged and indulged and indulged.

Well, I hit a point in December when I just decided enough was enough.  My current methods of dealing with stress (chocolate and coca-cola classic) were no longer working for me.  So I decided that it was time to get serious about this.

Then my grandpa died.  Then it was Christmas.  So I decided that January 1 was the date.  That date I was going to get serious about eating properly, exercising and losing weight.